I have seen several movies recently.
I like going to the theater.
Tonight I’m watching a movie at home.
I’ll be honest, I don’t fully understand it.
It’s one of those sci-fi futuristic movies.
The kind where even the lead character isn’t sure what’s happening,
But he is in the right place at the right time, every time.
Then it ends and I’m just as confused as I was all the way through it.
True to form, when it got scary I covered my eyes. That’s me!
Tuesday, February 27, 2018
Phantom Pain
They say that if you lose a body part, a leg, a hand...that you may experience what is called Phantom Pain. Pain you feel in the missing area.
It is said that 60-80% of amputees experience this. They have some therapies that they hope will help with this pain. They say that sometimes the Phantom Pain gets better, sometimes the pain gets worse, but often the pain is very, very long lasting.
What happens when it is your heart that is no longer there? When you entrusted it to the person you love completely, and he has discarded it. How does one deal with the pain? How does one survive the constant Phantom Pain of a missing heart?
Some things you grieve over all your life.
It is said that 60-80% of amputees experience this. They have some therapies that they hope will help with this pain. They say that sometimes the Phantom Pain gets better, sometimes the pain gets worse, but often the pain is very, very long lasting.
What happens when it is your heart that is no longer there? When you entrusted it to the person you love completely, and he has discarded it. How does one deal with the pain? How does one survive the constant Phantom Pain of a missing heart?
Some things you grieve over all your life.
Monday, February 26, 2018
Chocolate
A neighbor is searching for a forever home for this tiny Chocolate Lab. I made sure I didn’t touch her, there is no way I’m falling for another puppy! Darling!!!!!
Sunday, February 25, 2018
CULTIVATE
The first step is to find my joys and passions.
Cultivating these things, these passions,
these things that bring me joy,
will also bring new paths and
new relationships.
Helping me to have the life I have dreamed of.
Cultivating these things, these passions,
these things that bring me joy,
will also bring new paths and
new relationships.
Helping me to have the life I have dreamed of.
Life Coach
I decided that since I have some life changes to work through, a bit of guidance should be good. So I got a Life Coach. Moving forward is the goal. I think this will help me continue to move forward and let the past be in the past.
Let me just reiterate:
If the way he treated me, was a reflection of how he feels about himself, his life, and her...all the lies, all the hurt, all the cruelness, all the meanness...I guess that says a whole lot about him.
This is just a piece of my past. Leason learned. I am worth far more.
Moving forward.
This was the text my LC sent today:
Let me just reiterate:
If the way he treated me, was a reflection of how he feels about himself, his life, and her...all the lies, all the hurt, all the cruelness, all the meanness...I guess that says a whole lot about him.
This is just a piece of my past. Leason learned. I am worth far more.
Moving forward.
Saturday, February 24, 2018
Flooding
It’s been raining for days. I love the rain, but this rain that keeps going and going is crazy. There are flash flood advisories and all the lower bottom land is flooded already.
Last night I went to sleep listening to the rain. It woke me in the middle of the night. It greeted me when I got up this morning. It was pouring when I went to work and still poured when I got home.
My back yard is all water, the parking lot out front is covered in earthworms that have been flooded out of the soil.
I left my place at about 4:30 this afternoon. Visibility was down to about a 1/2 mile. It was pouring. I picked up my friend, everything was wet, but no problems, so he drove to dinner. On our way we drove along the rail line close to the river, you could see that the Ohio was right up to the edge of the road. It was still pouring when we made our way into the Victory Theater for the concert. The roof was leaking. But when we walked out of the concert about 9:30 the rain had finally ended. As we drove up to his place we saw that the block he lives on was totally flooded. A 4x4 truck was stalled in the middle of the flooded street. So we weren’t going to risk my little suv’s pride in all that water. We drove around a few blocks, and found that the flooding was localized. It was deep. One of his neighbors said it had been 2 feet higher just a couple hours earlier. As I drive home, east on the Lloyd, the on and off ramps were uner water, so were side streets. The man holes in the road near my apartment complex, looked like fountains, bubbling up from the ground. Very scary and creepy.
We may get a bit more rain tonight, but then we are looking for dryer weather for a few days.
I love the rain, but I don’t like so much water!!!
Next Day...
The river is right up to the road down town and right up to the 69 highway.
A LOT OF WATER!
Last night I went to sleep listening to the rain. It woke me in the middle of the night. It greeted me when I got up this morning. It was pouring when I went to work and still poured when I got home.
My back yard is all water, the parking lot out front is covered in earthworms that have been flooded out of the soil.
I left my place at about 4:30 this afternoon. Visibility was down to about a 1/2 mile. It was pouring. I picked up my friend, everything was wet, but no problems, so he drove to dinner. On our way we drove along the rail line close to the river, you could see that the Ohio was right up to the edge of the road. It was still pouring when we made our way into the Victory Theater for the concert. The roof was leaking. But when we walked out of the concert about 9:30 the rain had finally ended. As we drove up to his place we saw that the block he lives on was totally flooded. A 4x4 truck was stalled in the middle of the flooded street. So we weren’t going to risk my little suv’s pride in all that water. We drove around a few blocks, and found that the flooding was localized. It was deep. One of his neighbors said it had been 2 feet higher just a couple hours earlier. As I drive home, east on the Lloyd, the on and off ramps were uner water, so were side streets. The man holes in the road near my apartment complex, looked like fountains, bubbling up from the ground. Very scary and creepy.
We may get a bit more rain tonight, but then we are looking for dryer weather for a few days.
I love the rain, but I don’t like so much water!!!
Next Day...
The river is right up to the road down town and right up to the 69 highway.
A LOT OF WATER!
Kyle
When I turned 10 I was gifted with a 12 gauge shotgun for my birthday.
At ten years old!
When I turned 16 I was gifted a 9 mm.
Till this day I've never thought about shooting anyone.
I have my CCW. I know the laws.
Everyone should own a gun that's responsible and knows the laws.
It's our right!
At ten years old!
When I turned 16 I was gifted a 9 mm.
Till this day I've never thought about shooting anyone.
I have my CCW. I know the laws.
Everyone should own a gun that's responsible and knows the laws.
It's our right!
Sad Detection
I feel very sad for my smoke detector.
Every time I cook bacon it cries.
I think it is sad that it is not in the kitchen,
but has to hang on the living room wall.
This morning I cooked one strip of bacon.
This poor little guy cried not once but twice.
*sniffle*
Glass Half Something
In this life,
we are given the opportunity to fill our glass as we see fit.
I see my glass as not half empty or half full, but refillable. Sometimes I have had a sippy cup,
sometimes a champagne flute, sometimes a mason jar
and sometimes an origami paper cup.
No matter the vessel I hold at any point in my life,
it’s still up to me to refill it.
I tend to need new verity in my cup.
Changing things up can bring newness in life (rejuvenation). Sometimes the contents in our glass can get
stale or maybe it has just lost its effervescent.
It’s okay to toss it out and refill.
We need to make sure our glass is filled
with a fresh supply of whatever makes us happy.
Adding to taste is always recommended.
I also believe in keeping a shot glass handy,
for those times you just need an infusion or a chaser!
we are given the opportunity to fill our glass as we see fit.
I see my glass as not half empty or half full, but refillable. Sometimes I have had a sippy cup,
sometimes a champagne flute, sometimes a mason jar
and sometimes an origami paper cup.
No matter the vessel I hold at any point in my life,
it’s still up to me to refill it.
I tend to need new verity in my cup.
Changing things up can bring newness in life (rejuvenation). Sometimes the contents in our glass can get
stale or maybe it has just lost its effervescent.
It’s okay to toss it out and refill.
We need to make sure our glass is filled
with a fresh supply of whatever makes us happy.
Adding to taste is always recommended.
I also believe in keeping a shot glass handy,
for those times you just need an infusion or a chaser!
Friday, February 23, 2018
Word of The Day
Sapiophile: One who finds intelligence the most sexually attractive feature; behaviour of becoming attracted to or aroused by intelligence and its use
Thursday, February 22, 2018
Swirling Beauty
Standing in the shower tonight
Head to toe in strawberry bubbles
I watched the steam swirl around me.
Marveling at the elements;
water, heat, steam
I found it calmly amazing to watch
Rather humbling to see nature doing
what nature does
Even in the confines of
my darling little bathroom
I am reminded that if we take the time
to connect with the elements all around us...
we will see beauty in everything.
eek
Head to toe in strawberry bubbles
I watched the steam swirl around me.
Marveling at the elements;
water, heat, steam
I found it calmly amazing to watch
Rather humbling to see nature doing
what nature does
Even in the confines of
my darling little bathroom
I am reminded that if we take the time
to connect with the elements all around us...
we will see beauty in everything.
eek
Word of The Day
Cacoethes:
Irresistible urge to do something inadvisable.
(sounds like a challeng to me)
Irresistible urge to do something inadvisable.
(sounds like a challeng to me)
WIRING
My apartment is old and the upkeep of the maintenance is not what I would call 'up to par'. So when my lights went out in the living room and front porch a week or so ago I was distraught. I could have called the maintenance department, however my past experience with them let me know that they are not very bright nor very efficient. I really don't like them in my home without supervision either.
My friend however, is one of those technical brainiacs that can figure out all that stuff. So he ripped apart my apartment last night, tested everything, checked all my wiring and outlets and got everything back up and running beautifully! I am grateful for his smarts, his equipment and his time. All done for the price of a home cooked dinner for two. (No need for candle light!)
My friend however, is one of those technical brainiacs that can figure out all that stuff. So he ripped apart my apartment last night, tested everything, checked all my wiring and outlets and got everything back up and running beautifully! I am grateful for his smarts, his equipment and his time. All done for the price of a home cooked dinner for two. (No need for candle light!)
Wednesday, February 21, 2018
Quote of The Day
"love is beautiful when it's professed,
but it's only meaningful when it's practiced."
brene brown
but it's only meaningful when it's practiced."
brene brown
Technology
Technology is changing the way we see things. Yet I wonder how much true stock we should put into the scientific view we are given. Case in point:
1. A few of my close friends decided to have their DNA tested to find out there heritage. A costly bit of trivia I thought. When thier results came back we all oohed and ahhed over the brightly colored graphs that coresponded with the brightly colored global map. This showing where their lineage originated. However, at the bottom of each individuals graph it showed the percentage that was Unknown. If technology can tell you where 97% of your genealogy comes from, why can’t it detect that last little bit???
2. A friend has been suffering from a debilitating headache. Today her doctor requested an ex-ray be taken. As anyone would imagine, it was to view if her bones were out of line, thus causing the pain in her head. The email she received this evening, to provide her the results... because technology is so great that we no longer need the human touch of a call from the doctor or his staff...said that no evidence was found that her bones where out of line. But the email did go onto report that the ex-ray did show signs of chronic constipation.
Very interesting perhaps, but how does that contribute to her headache?
After laughing over the findings for several minutes, we decided that although technology is amazing, it’s still just a bit of gibberish that costs too much and doesn’t give a clear picture of reality.
Oh the fun of the modern world!!
1. A few of my close friends decided to have their DNA tested to find out there heritage. A costly bit of trivia I thought. When thier results came back we all oohed and ahhed over the brightly colored graphs that coresponded with the brightly colored global map. This showing where their lineage originated. However, at the bottom of each individuals graph it showed the percentage that was Unknown. If technology can tell you where 97% of your genealogy comes from, why can’t it detect that last little bit???
2. A friend has been suffering from a debilitating headache. Today her doctor requested an ex-ray be taken. As anyone would imagine, it was to view if her bones were out of line, thus causing the pain in her head. The email she received this evening, to provide her the results... because technology is so great that we no longer need the human touch of a call from the doctor or his staff...said that no evidence was found that her bones where out of line. But the email did go onto report that the ex-ray did show signs of chronic constipation.
Very interesting perhaps, but how does that contribute to her headache?
After laughing over the findings for several minutes, we decided that although technology is amazing, it’s still just a bit of gibberish that costs too much and doesn’t give a clear picture of reality.
Oh the fun of the modern world!!
The Storm is Coming
At 12:35 am it is 70 degrees outside.
The wind is getting pretty stiff, 15 mph currently.
They predict that in the next few hours,
the temperature will drop over 25 degrees.
The wind is getting pretty stiff, 15 mph currently.
They predict that in the next few hours,
the temperature will drop over 25 degrees.
2:30am 49*
I ❤️ a good storm!
Tuesday, February 20, 2018
Taking For Granted
Never ignore a person who loves you, cares for you, and misses you.
Because one day, you might wake up from your sleep
and realize that you lost the moon while counting the stars.
Because one day, you might wake up from your sleep
and realize that you lost the moon while counting the stars.
Thought
Since the Earth is the third planet from the sun...
Dosen’t that make every country a third world country?
Tuesday
Its going to be in the 70s here today. I like Arizona weather in my little corner of Kentuckiana once in a while. I think I’ll take the day off and go have some fun. Chilly wet weather is in the forecast for the rest of the week. This girl needs her fill of sunshine so I can appreciate the other lovely weather.
A Movie, Pie Night & Games With Friends!
A Movie, Pie Night & Games With Friends!
Monday, February 19, 2018
Return To Me
Return to me
Oh my dear I'm so lonely
Hurry back, hurry back
Oh my love hurry back I'm yours
Oh my dear I'm so lonely
Hurry back, hurry back
Oh my love hurry back I'm yours
Return to me
For my heart wants you only
Hurry home, hurry home
Won't you please hurry home to my heart
For my heart wants you only
Hurry home, hurry home
Won't you please hurry home to my heart
My darling, if I hurt you I'm sorry
Forgive me and please say you are mine
Forgive me and please say you are mine
Return to me
Please come back bella mia
Hurry back, hurry home to my arms
To my lips and my heart
Please come back bella mia
Hurry back, hurry home to my arms
To my lips and my heart
The Ohio River
The first time I crossed the Ohio River I was glad I was the passenger and not the driver that morning. I had never crossed a river that was so large, and never one with so much water flowing beneath the bridge. I was awestruck by the river, the bridges and the green woods that were everything.
The following year when I crossed that river every day on my way to and from work, I was still in awe of it. The first winter I was in the Tri-State, I learned about Ohio River Flooding. I have learned that it happens every year. As the girl from the Valley of The Sun, the reality of this river flooding made no sense. Then I watched as the river overflow its borders. It can crest at up to 44 feet. The water keeps going and going. I now live two miles from the edge of the Ohio River. And watching all that water creep over the mile of bottomland is still horrific to me. There is so much water, where it isn't supposed to be. It displaces all the wildlife within the area. Which in turn plays havoc with the traffic.
I have a strong respect and love for nature. I love to watch the river even though it scares me more than a little.
The following year when I crossed that river every day on my way to and from work, I was still in awe of it. The first winter I was in the Tri-State, I learned about Ohio River Flooding. I have learned that it happens every year. As the girl from the Valley of The Sun, the reality of this river flooding made no sense. Then I watched as the river overflow its borders. It can crest at up to 44 feet. The water keeps going and going. I now live two miles from the edge of the Ohio River. And watching all that water creep over the mile of bottomland is still horrific to me. There is so much water, where it isn't supposed to be. It displaces all the wildlife within the area. Which in turn plays havoc with the traffic.
I have a strong respect and love for nature. I love to watch the river even though it scares me more than a little.
Quote of The Day
“To conquer oneself is a greater victory than to conquer thousands in a battle.”
Dalai Lama
Dalai Lama
shattered
How did I trust you so completely?
I built my future on your words.
Now I see everything you said to me was a lie.
When she spoke with me I learned more lies
I also learned, as I knew before, she lies too.
You are both very skilled at telling untruths,
to make things look different,
to make your selves look and feel better than you are.
I can’t imagine trying to keep all the lies straight in your head.
But if you wish to believe them,
please be aware that she sees you much worse than you are.
And we both know how bad you are.
But the lies she tells of you are even uglier.
My heart hurts, it feels as it has shattered.
My future is completely shattered.
But sadly I hurt for my best friend too.
I built my future on your words.
Now I see everything you said to me was a lie.
When she spoke with me I learned more lies
I also learned, as I knew before, she lies too.
You are both very skilled at telling untruths,
to make things look different,
to make your selves look and feel better than you are.
I can’t imagine trying to keep all the lies straight in your head.
But if you wish to believe them,
please be aware that she sees you much worse than you are.
And we both know how bad you are.
But the lies she tells of you are even uglier.
My heart hurts, it feels as it has shattered.
My future is completely shattered.
But sadly I hurt for my best friend too.
Sunday, February 18, 2018
Coke
Why is it that Coke in a glass bottle
is so much better than in plastic or out of a dispenser?
The Winner!!!
Chicken tacos!
is so much better than in plastic or out of a dispenser?
The Winner!!!
Chicken tacos!
Chicken and Tacos
I tried the fried chicken at Publix.
It’s good.
Then I got a Jack-In -The-Box Taco
And I was a happy girl!
It’s good.
Then I got a Jack-In -The-Box Taco
And I was a happy girl!
Saturday, February 17, 2018
Lunch in Tennessee
When I left Indiana, the car was covered in snow,
The drive through Kentucky was wet,
but this gray chilly day is perfect for lunch in Tennessee!
The drive through Kentucky was wet,
but this gray chilly day is perfect for lunch in Tennessee!
This Week in Years Past
Let’s review!
2018: Valentine’s
2016: The emails you sent this week were too steamy to post on this blog.
2015: You sent pictures.
2014:
2013: You showed me Bryan’s Jeep, with pictures of his adventure up in the Nevada mountains.
2012:
Good morning Angie
I wasnt worried last night. I know you arent the kind of person to jump in bed with anyone. I do worry sometimes that you will not need me someday. I try not to think about things that upset me.
Here are the events of my night. I got home Gail was sick again. I ate a strawberry poptart ( no frosting ) and drank a glass of milk (2%). I took off my pants and went in the other bedroom and did 20 minutes on the elliptical in my boxers. Then to the shower (no therapy ). Watched about 45 min of tv while Gail snored.
Every time my eyes opened during the night my first thoughts were you. I woke up this morning at 5 and instantly I thought of you sleeping. I got up and showered and wondered about you night. I got dressed went and got the paper and sat down for Cheerios. I thought about Mark's award. I thought about the little chocolate hearts and how the kids had ate them. I thought about how I wish I could buy you gifts all the time. I thought about the boysenberry jelly. I thought about the earrings you were wearing last night. I pictured how pretty you were last night. I fixed me some coffee before I left and thought about how we had talked about coffee the day before. When I got in the car I remembered how we used to talk in the car , and how are roads are different . If you have any doubts about what my thoughts are about now you know.
Totally addicted,Totally in love with you.
Mark looks like you. I see you in his face. He is a good looking man. And Amy is so cute. Just has that giggly fun look. Thank you for the pictures. Everything you do makes me me loved.
I wasnt worried last night. I know you arent the kind of person to jump in bed with anyone. I do worry sometimes that you will not need me someday. I try not to think about things that upset me.
Here are the events of my night. I got home Gail was sick again. I ate a strawberry poptart ( no frosting ) and drank a glass of milk (2%). I took off my pants and went in the other bedroom and did 20 minutes on the elliptical in my boxers. Then to the shower (no therapy ). Watched about 45 min of tv while Gail snored.
Every time my eyes opened during the night my first thoughts were you. I woke up this morning at 5 and instantly I thought of you sleeping. I got up and showered and wondered about you night. I got dressed went and got the paper and sat down for Cheerios. I thought about Mark's award. I thought about the little chocolate hearts and how the kids had ate them. I thought about how I wish I could buy you gifts all the time. I thought about the boysenberry jelly. I thought about the earrings you were wearing last night. I pictured how pretty you were last night. I fixed me some coffee before I left and thought about how we had talked about coffee the day before. When I got in the car I remembered how we used to talk in the car , and how are roads are different . If you have any doubts about what my thoughts are about now you know.
Totally addicted,Totally in love with you.
Mark looks like you. I see you in his face. He is a good looking man. And Amy is so cute. Just has that giggly fun look. Thank you for the pictures. Everything you do makes me me loved.
I love you.
Keith
Friday, February 16, 2018
House Party
Mark and Amanda are having a House Warming Party tonight.
All their friends are coming to see their new home.
I am sure it’s going to be Wonderful!
All their friends are coming to see their new home.
I am sure it’s going to be Wonderful!
Friday Night
Big Bad VooDoo Daddy...
I have wanted to see this band for over 20 years.
I love that 1920s-1930s Jazz Swing sound.
Cab Calloway and Louis Prima...
I love knowing my Grandparents listened to
all this when they were very young.
“Cutting Edge” for their generation! Great Stuff!!!
I have wanted to see this band for over 20 years.
I love that 1920s-1930s Jazz Swing sound.
Cab Calloway and Louis Prima...
I love knowing my Grandparents listened to
all this when they were very young.
“Cutting Edge” for their generation! Great Stuff!!!
Thursday, February 15, 2018
Questions
Questions I thought I had answers for
now go unanswered
Feelings are raw
My bare feet are cold
I did what was asked of me, regardless of the pain
I tell the truth, then wonder what lie you create,
even when your words say Forgive me and Forever
My blanket is warm, yet I’m shivering
Your smell is all around me
now go unanswered
Feelings are raw
My bare feet are cold
I did what was asked of me, regardless of the pain
I tell the truth, then wonder what lie you create,
even when your words say Forgive me and Forever
My blanket is warm, yet I’m shivering
Your smell is all around me
Wednesday, February 14, 2018
Germany
I have clients that just returned from a trip we planned to Germany.
They are delightful! They brought me back a treasure!
So very sweet!
They are delightful! They brought me back a treasure!
So very sweet!
So Thoughtful!
When we got to work this morning, Valentines Day, all the ladies in the office had one of these hearts on our desks. I assumed I knew who has been our Secret Valentine. But I was wrong!!
Tim, my insurance agent, had been shopping with his little boy yesterday, buying treats and treasures for Tim's wife and daughter, when his son asked "How many girls do you have at work dad?" Tim said in reply "There are nine ladies in the office." So each one of the AAA Ladies had a Valentine treasure on our desk this morning! Sweet!!!!
Tim, my insurance agent, had been shopping with his little boy yesterday, buying treats and treasures for Tim's wife and daughter, when his son asked "How many girls do you have at work dad?" Tim said in reply "There are nine ladies in the office." So each one of the AAA Ladies had a Valentine treasure on our desk this morning! Sweet!!!!
Tuesday, February 13, 2018
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