Trucks

I have a thing for old trucks! It's one of those things I have liked since childhood. But as an adult, my like has turned to passion. The make and model don't matter. The restoration just makes it more sweet. There is such a neat feeling when viewing an amazing piece of Americana that has been lovingly restored to it's grandeur. These old beauties are truly works of art! The lines, windows, headlamps! The hum and rumble! I have both a reverence and a red hot lust for these boy toys! I would love to own a 1936 Ford, mmmmmmm! But you know me.... I would like to touch them all!


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Leading Role

I believe that life is about happiness! The joy we give and the joy we get from those we love.

With out working on our own happiness we are not living!

We all need to take the leading role in our own lives. We all need to play the part of the main character in our world, have a say in the direction and the outcome. This will let us be a wonderful supporting actor in those lives around us. If we are not happy with the part we play, we need to tweak it, change it, perfect it. (Fake it till you make it.) Till the part is the one that makes us happy, makes us feel complete. The part that lets you be the best person you can be!

We all need to work on being happy.

It's ok....

I use to talk with God all the time. An ongoing conversation. When things were good and not so good. I felt like we worked together. Somewhere along the way, though, I started to feel like he was checking in from somewhere far away, a long distance relationship if you will. I was still faithful. I still did what I was supposed to do. I felt alone as my reality stared to fall apart, I kept doing what was right, and asking for help. Each time I asked, he would always say "It will be ok." I went for years living with "It will be ok." When you are fed that, time and time again, you tend to lose sight of what ok is, or looks like or how it feels. Yet somehow when the fork in my life happened, I was at peace, I felt good about the choices I made, all the while still hearing only "It will be ok."
I saw a councilor for a while after I stared on my new path. I wanted a road map to the future, he wanted me to explore the darkened paths of my youth. He taught me some amazing things about me. Things I could never have seen differently on my own. I did not grasp those things until some time after I told him I would not be going back. When I saw him the last time, he asked "How are you now?"... I said "I am ok."
I realized then, that maybe I had been waiting for God to help fix my issues. But maybe God was preparing me to fix them on my own.
And sure enough, it's ok, I am OK!



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Dear Best Friend

I love your thoughts! Always...always


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The Obsession

I am in love.....

from the moment I wake up in the morning, to the minute I fall asleep at night.

I have an obsession. I didn't think I would. I know others who do. I thought they where freaky! Now I know that once you get a hold of it, once your fingers start the search....its very difficult to leave alone. Its all you want to concentrate on, explore, fill your time with. I know where it is at all time, I panic if I let it out of sight for even a minute. If my mind wonders, on children or work or some other distraction, and then I regain my senses, I feel like a child rediscovering the most wonderful Christmas gift ever! It was meant to be just a tool, a needed thing...not a thing that I need.

Yet....here I am.....totally in LOVE with.....my iPhone. I may need to seek help...But John already sent me the site to sign up for classes!! YAY!!!

SUMMER CHAOS

Today is the first day of the last 4 weeks of SCHOOL! Now is when time starts to go faster and faster. Leading up to mass chaos I know the kids are looking forward to summer break...

But I am NOT. I would be a very happy mom if we had year round school. Who was this crazy person who thought up 12 weeks of freedom for the children? They end up staying up all night,

then sleeping all day. They do next to nothing as far as being productive. Its like they forget how to do chores, not like they where ever very good at doing them on their own before.

In my house they have zones that are their responsibility. They hate the word ZONE!! I try to mix it up so everyone gets a chance to be responsible for a different area each week. But I always have to lose my mind before anyone gets a clue and tidies anything anyway.

I have even planned summer lessons and learning opportunities. They don't like that AT ALL.

However, I have figured out how to enforce the lack of effort, if the "B" word is ever, ever uttered.....my poor children get an extra chore. (the B word = BOARD)

I need to put on my "Awesome Magical Sparkly Mom Hat" and start making plans for the 12 weeks of uncensored freedom.

OH MY STINKING HECK....I don't love summer break!

Letters from Children

"Dear Fellow Neighbors across the wall.

A tragic accident happened today

evan was stupid enough to through the

bat across the wall.

Please send it back.

P.S. Please smell note!"

We love to listen to the little children who

live behind us. They are delightful!

A few times a week we find a ball or toy

in our yard and toss them back over.

This week we started getting notes

as well. I am assuming the orange marker

they are writing with is yummy, I wont

tell them that it smells like grass by the

time I read it!

The simple joys in life are the very best!

Perfect For Me

I found the one thing in this world that was perfect for me.

I saw with my eyes but I knew with my heart.

All the dreams and wishes since I was a little girl, all rolled

up into one person. All the desires and dreams I have had

as a woman. All there, in one man.

I knew that this one piece would make me complete,

yet knowing full well it was just out of my reach, not mine

to have. Hoping, wanting, needing, dreaming. Praying.

I should have known it was too good to be real. Yet I let

my heart go. I gave it way, I would give it to him again

and again and again. Time after time.

Not mine to have. But for a moment I was totally loved.

Never before have I ever felt so totally loved, cared for,

thought of, cherished. I felt safe and comfortable, like I

could breath and dream. He has every quality I ever

have admired, every attribute I would ever hope for.

I gave him my heart, and he filled it. Then he gave it back.

Only showing me that the choices he makes are the right

choices, making him once again the perfect man for me.

I love you Keith. I always will. Always....

Eye Bling

Meg had brought a note home from the school recently, suggesting we get her eyes checked.

So, since this is something I have only done for myself once in my lifetime, I figured it was about time to take the kiddos.

So this week I took my two youngest with me to see the optometrist.

I really like our eye doctor, I recomend him to everyone!

I went in first. Maturity, as he puts it, is taking its tole on my vision ...

its not the first thing to go, its okay.

Mark was next. His eyes are not 20/20, but darn close!

Miss Meg was last in line for the eye chart.

As he came out of the office, the doctor asked how I felt about having her pupils dilated.

I am not real clear on why this is done, but he put my eyes through it and I survived,

so go ahead.

As the doctor went back into his office he cackled a menacing laugh,

and said he would do his best at torturing her eyes.

After the torture session, Meg looks at all the glasses. And the doctor comes to speak with me. He asked me if she had regular head aches, I said no.

He proceeded to tell me...and I quote

"Her eyes are Jacked Up".

Now, please understand, this man is delightful, just totally fun to be around.

But, I so was not anticipating those words ever being used in reference to my Angel!

But low and behold. It is true. The poor thing, just like her sweet sister, tends toward the lazy eye thing. But with glasses it can be corrected before adulthood.

So... we helped her pick out a sporty/party girl pair of bright pink frames.

We will go back to pick up her neweye BLING in a week.

I am very sorry I never took any of my children to see the optometrist before now.

But like I said, I had only been once in my life time,

and was not aware that this is a HAVE TO! Now I know!

The best part of the family outing, was not that we found the really awesome frames for Cookie, or that I will be sporting contacts from here forward. The very Bestest part was the fact that all three of us were seen for an office visit, Meg's glasses were ordered, and the Total Bill came to....

$46.00!!! WOOHOO!!!

I do so love my insurance company!!! www.thevillageeyecare.com Dr Baird

The People In Our (Work) Family

I know I have said it before, but I will say it again...
I love the people I work with!
I am blessed in the fact that I enjoy my job,
but more to the point,
I enjoy all the people I spend the work week with.
Our ages are varied, our life styles too.
We are all at different intersections in our lives.
We know enough about each other to ask about family,
events and happenings.
We are concerned about each other, support each other,
and care about each other.
Our work environment is very much a family.
One of us got married last year, we have had two new babies
born in our family, and a grand baby.
School and advancement are encouraged and celebrated as well.
I love to listen to our trainer's stories
( NO ONE tells a story like her, NO ONE!).
Our superiors are part of our family too;
they are our mentors, our grown ups,
the go out on a limb for us,
they are our biggest cheer leaders.
I have friends here at work.
And even though I would rather be home with my own,
I love my work family!

Jessette.....This name makes my heart happy.

I love that it is unique.

I love that it is beautiful. I love that it fits my daughter so perfectly.

My Jessette is so talented, so creative, and so amazing.

I am in awe of her.

She is working on her bachelors at the Phoenix Art Institute.

Her talent for art is delightful.

She has always taken the path less traveled.

And she is so much better for it.

And all those that choose to be near her

are so much better for knowing her.

Her head is on straight, her goals are set,

she is hard working and she notices the little things.

Her passions are deep and her temper is quick

(she was born with bright red hair).

She is just amazing!

She took the next step in her life last weekend.

And although it caused growing pains for out little family,

I couldn't be happier!

In fact I have been seen doing the Happy Mom Dance

0at regular intervals.

She moved out on her own.... with her best friend!

I was sad to have one more of my babies move out.

Yet she is happy, she is ready to be the grown up.

I rejoice in her maturity, in her twenty something wisdom.

I celebrate her achievement of the next path in life.

She can always come back home, so can he for that matter.

I love them both.

But the fact that my baby girl has grown up,

and is such a wonderful person is truly a

Proud Parenting Moment!

I WANT GREEN.

Don't get me wrong, I love so many things about the desert.

I love the Sunsets,

the smell of the Rain in Desert,

the Monsoon Storms,

the amazing Dust Storms.

But we have no lush green.

I want big fluffy trees, and miles and miles of green.

This is my friends land in Kentucky.

A month ago the same spot was covered in snow.

If this is what snow can do, bring it on!

Because I WANT GREEN!!!