I love my children! Is it possible to say that too often or too loudly? Last night I was asked who my hero's are. I ran through all the people in my life.... the answer is my children. They are so unique and strong. They are loyal and loving. The strength and teamwork they exhibit is amazing. They love each other, take care of each other, learn from each other. I am proud of each of them.
I have learned that spontaneity is something that can be seen total differently depending on who is viewing it. To some it means the lack of responsibility and no regard for reality. For me, it is the reward for a firm hold on reality and the constant attention to responsibilities. Sometimes I need it just as much as I need to breath.
I have been told by many that the Law of Attraction is something I needed to research. I have read many book on the subject. And I can tell you that whether it was to help me reach my goals or to improve my attitude, the books never hit home for me. I just didn't get what they where trying to tell me. Then I read "The Secret Laws of Attraction" by Talane Miedaner. I recommend this to everyone. It helped me to see its okay to want.... to give.... to change! I never knew that I don't need permission... but that all of this is OKAY. I am the only one that can fill my needs. That I am complete and whole. I didn't know. I though I was waiting for someone to complete me, to make me better. I don't need anyone else. I fulfill myself, I don't need anyone else to do it for me. When I have a need, I can fill it, or request it from someone else if I wish. I feel empowered and my heart and mind are, for the first time in my life, at ease. I am grateful for this knowledge.
I have also read "Finding It" by Valerie Bertinelli. Amazing!! I relate to so many of her experiences. The order of which I am doing my self exploration is not the same as hers, yet I am feeling mentally and emotionally healthy, for the very first time ever. I recommend this book too.
I have learned that taking inventory of what you want is a good thing. You may be working at something that down deep, you really don't want. Just because it is the next thing on your list, the thing you thought you should be working toward. It's okay to reevaluate, let go and move on.
My friend John has always told me, 'It's okay to say NEXT ... then move on'.
I finally get it! (On so many levels.)
The fork in my life, has lead to many more uncharted roads. I know that this journey is life long and I am so grateful for that. At this point, I can say that I have the equipment and knowledge to make it an awesome adventure.
I have been to the bottom, I took inventory there and cleaned it all out. I am grateful for my past. I like who I am because of my experiences. But oh my gosh, I am so excited for each and every day, for the little and the big. I am glad for those who accompany me; no matter how long they walk with me. Stepping stones! It is an amazing thing, once you let go of what is not important, everything becomes clear and attainable!
(I have been in my home for a year now (11/13), and it has been a Wonderful Year! I love my roommates! I am happy!!!)
